random thoughts;

Looooong post haha with some things I thought about… ;D

It doesn’t hurt to treat friends that are close to you super duper well occasionally.. when you get used to each other, and you know each others’ flaws well, you jokingly say harsh words pointing out those flaws and you don’t think there’s anything wrong with it because well.. you’re close friends and it becomes a norm. Sometimes, to be more empathetic with a friend who’s down, and not rattling on about yourself most of the time. Always remember why you like each other enough to be good friends in the first place, and other than knowing each others’ flaws well, also know each others’ merits, and help each other to shine brightly in them!

A true friend is someone who thinks that you are a good egg even though he knows that you are slightly cracked. - Bernard Meltzer

If you think about it, sometimes you treat people who aren’t close to you, or people you barely know, even better than those whom you’re close to, or known for a long while. I have sometimes been guilty of that too.. even to my family >< But yes, I agree that real friends tell you the truth, and they only want the best for you.. but there is also a line between that and hurting others’ feelings. Real friends want to bring out the best in each other.. they don’t want to compete with each other to be better one, they help each other to be their best ;D I admit that my choice of words aren’t all that great, and sometimes I say things harsher than I actually mean.. but I really do mean well~

My best friend is the one who brings out the best in me. - Henry Ford

Or sometimes, maybe all the jokes/making fun of each other are the only things that connect you to the friends~ I learned my lesson the hard way.. and it wasn’t very pretty.. but what hurt the most was finding out just how much some friends I thought knew me well, actually didn’t understand nor know me at all.. yet I knew and understood them so well.. imagine my disappointment & heartbreak. We all have our own scars, and there is nothing to gain by looking back at them, but everything to gain by looking forward.. and moving on~ but of course, I am thankful because everything I’ve experienced has made me the person I am today.

Don’t look out only for your own interests, but take an interest in others, too. - Philippians 2:4 

Be thankful for those who love you just the way you are. Don’t take these people for granted. How do you know if they do love you? When you feel the most comfortable and you do the silliest and weirdest things and yet they don’t mind any of it and have fun being as weird and as silly as you are, or when you are sad (for legit reason), they actually KNOW you are sad, and try to cheer you up, I suppose they really do love you ;D I have even gotten through a class with a really heavy heart, and my eyes brimming with tears the whole time yet no one noticed.. maybe I’m actually a really good actress ahahahaha xD

Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind. - Dr. Seuss

I am a weak and sensitive person (LOL), but I like people to think that I’m strong \m/ I love to advise people, and to encourage people, but most of the time, I don’t even tell myself those words that I tell others. AND.. even something as small as being the last one left on the shelf, or knowing that you’d rather have another friend you like better accompany you rather than me, it really does hurt and make me wonder if I did anything wrong to be less-liked. It was something I used to struggle with some years back.. but I also know that God did put some really good friends in my life, so thank you to all the friends who love me as I am.. and I’m really grateful for you all.

If you feel like you have to try hard to fit in, being someone you’re not, say things that aren’t you.. just to be able to comfortably be in the company of some friends, then maybe you should look at yourself and reflect. All you need to be is to be yourself.. For people who don’t love you for you, stop wasting time with those people and open your eyes to the people who do, and love and appreciate them more! & remember, to always put your family first.. because they are God-given, and they’ll always love & support you no matter what ;D

God himself has taught you to love one another. - 1 Thessalonians 4:9 

And most of all, God loves you just the way you are. Sometimes I do such ungodly things & I let Him down time after time, yet God still loves me. I feel I really don’t deserve it, and don’t want to receive His grace and His kindness.. Yet He has already given all those things to me, and I still remain the apple of His eye. Many non-believers think Christians are supposed to be perfect and different from themselves, and scowl when they are not much different from them, but I guess it is only because we are so imperfect, that we need God even more.

I will be your God throughout your lifetime - until your hair is white with age. I made you, and I will care for you. I will carry you along and save you. - Isaiah 46:4 

I am weak, He makes me strong. He gives me the strength in my legs to walk, the incredible vision from my eyes, the miraculous function of my body system, ability to feel, touch, smell, taste, hear, speak, to sing.. and a heart that can love, because He loved me first ♥