I think the only reason why I’m going to continue on with this job is because I don’t want to give up & I want to challenge myself to trust and rely on God by allowing myself to be in a position that’s not exactly a bed of roses to me. I don’t even care about the money anymore.. If I was only going to do this for the money, I’d quit right away. Honestly, I really really really didn’t want to go for this job. At first it was about wanting to earn some money, but then.. especially after hearing what Cords said about the boss, and talking to my Mom and friends.. (who told me NOT to go btw) I was 100% sure I didn’t want to go. Despite all this, there was a voice in my head telling me I should go. I had asked Jesus to help me with that dilemma, flipping through the bible and all I saw were stories about people in sort of kind of similar situations to mine :3 They all went ahead because God was with them. I tried ignoring it, but oh wells.. God has His ways.

To be honest, I really want to quit T_T Especially after getting a taste of how it’s like after FIRST day of work. I don’t HAVE to be there, I have a choice. I can be firm and just quit whenever I like. I don’t care about the money anymore anyway. It’s not even a lot. But it’s like.. I feel like if I quit now, I’m not going to experience any of the awesome goodness that God has planned for me when I choose to continue ><

So.. I’m going to work towards not letting my circumstances conform me, I’m not going to be like most people who blame their actions on their circumstances. Don’t ask God to change your circumstances, ask Him to change YOU. I’m going to always praise and thank God no matter what happens. This is my chance to learn to trust in God wholly and for my faith to grow. I don’t think it’s going to be easy, who knows what’s up ahead for the next two months? But what’s there to fear if I know God will be with me throughout? God was with Moses when he stood up to the Pharaoh and demanded to let His people go.. That seems scarier btw, so.. I believe that God will be with me too (:

Sticks and stones may hurt my bones but words will not hurt me. Don’t believe in words that tell you you’re less than what God tells you you are. & no way will Jesus let you fight the Goliaths of your life alone!

I still foresee myself complaining and ranting and whining though HAHAHAHA. I’m only human T_T